On top of feeling exhausted and completely depleted of energy, I have been feeling blue and uninspired lately. I haven’t been on Facebook or Twitter much. Neither have I had much interest in any of my hobbies. Seems like lately all I’ve wanted to do is sleep.
Don’t get me wrong! I still have a desire for my passions… the desire to sleep, however, has been much stronger and I usually end up doing that.
I am almost 8 weeks out from surgery. You’d think I’d be past this stage. Perhaps it is the Prednisone leaving my system… or maybe it’s because I have three abscesses and my body is putting all it’s energy into healing. Whatever it is, I’m tired.
Some of you may know that I used to be a student of Shotokan Karate. I began taking classes in college and continued after graduation. Five years ago this month I achieved my brown belt. In our school brown comes just before black. I was fit, determined and on fire! Nothing was going to stop me from getting my black belt.
In February of 2011 I was approximately six months away from getting my black belt. Then Ulcerative Colitis got the best of me. I was robbed of one of my biggest dreams and goals in life. It crushed me. Once karate gets in your blood, it’s hard to shake it.
Shortly after my diagnosis, I moved three hours away to be closer to my husband (who was my boyfriend at the time). I found a brief period of remission but could not find a suitable dojo. Since moving here, UC and I have been in a vicious battle.
So, yeah. UC robbed me of my black belt. Tell me–besides your health–what has your IBD robbed you of?
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UPDATE: I’m telling my ulcerative colitis story in a fun and entertaining way! Check out Guts of Fury!
I will have to ask at my next appointment. Crazy what these diseases do to us… hopefully there will be a cure in our lifetime! Thank you for your thoughts and prayers! Always appreciated.
Just got caught up on your blog. I hate that this is happening to you and that every one step forward you take two steps back. I can't believe the abscess keeps multiplying you need to see your surgeon soon to get to the root cause of this and start getting in the right healing track. The tired could be low B12… Since my latest surgery I have to get monthly shots but it could also be it's working overtime trying to heal. Don't fight it your body is telling you something and you need to listen.
Yes I have been robbed by Crohn's just like you. I have spent too many hours to count not doing things with family and friends because I knew there wouldn't be a bathroom nearby or because who wants to go to a friends house and stink out the facility. I am trying to get back to running but the surgery and the disease are trying to stop that. I am doing everything I can to win this war but I may have to modify what I term as "winning". Know that I'm thinking of you and sending you good thoughts and prayers